Orbiting stars

Be patient
I must keep reminding myself of this
Instant gratification like vines in the underbrush.
Ego met with mindlessness
Shaking hands with his super
Their grip so strong when comfortably numb
I shake uncontrollably as my energy is blocked
Vibrations becoming violent
Thought turning towards darkness
I call out of the pervading darkness
Pleading with the light to illuminate my soul
"I would walk in the light! O' Creator! O' Universe!
Dispel these dark shadows of the mind.
Guide my minds eye towards the light.
Let my shadow always fall behind me."
O' that I were made of mirrors! That I may fill my world with light.
To be a beacon among beacons.

Yet, as I look inside to find the source of shadow of which my mind fights. To pay it in kind for the sadness it brought me,
I think of the eons of time wasted remembering the times and how else I would have faced them. Recalling the things it had taught me. You must have a plan that expects derivation. Accomplishment comes through focus and meditation.

So when gratification walks by with an innocent twinkle in her eye,
just give her a wink and a sigh and know, under smile, there's a lie.
The lie is yours and that's why you're stricken.
She could be yours and your heart starts to quicken. Do I swoop in now or do I abide my time? I'd go with patience, losing is no crime.
So rather than only living for now, I'll continue to drop sweat from my brow. Hoping some day, some way, somehow, I could be yours when the time is right. Opportunity presenting, O' resistance I'd fight. Until days turn cold and out rolls the night,
I return to your warmth and eyes so bright.
To share with you what drives me so and speculate on where and when we'll go. What we want, what we need and how to distinguish the two.
Finding peace and calm after what we've been through. How grateful I am that I have you.
To strive for, to live for
In everything I do.
I hope these words, for you, ring true.
And those words are, "I love you!"