Repulsive forces

The space around me is distorted
Like static on a tv channel.
Reality is warped and inverted.
Like an electro magnetic field surrounding me.
At any time it will collapse in upon me.
Like a force field it keeps out the fear.
Fear that i'll fall into the oblivion.
Not able to find myself
I feel like you are surrounded by a mist of confusion
Sticking to me like fungi
Im not sure why or what about
But i feel like I'm afloat in a sea of chaos
Unsure of where the tide will take me
Head barely above the surface on the brink of submerging.
Do i drift or do i fight the tide?
Do run away or to i enjoy the ride?
A whole new world at my fingertips and all i need is a gentle push.
At that point i will be consumed with what my other self wants.
A whole new world of complication
It's the point of no return.
A return to what? i do not know.
I'm lost no matter where i go.