Numb

There is no feeling left in me to that which is good and just. My life, it seems, matters only to me. My heart about to bust.
Clouds consume the light once there, bathing in dark filled rain.
Filling the void, these drugs i take to dilute the pain.
Light on the horizon, it seems, just out of reach.
Aura of a heart filled shape, to them i'd like to teach.
Facades of love and salvation sounding most appealing.
But hate and war come out your mouth as you preach it's more revealing.
Dictating the mass to fullfill your goals
You lead the sheep to slaughter.
They blindly follow you to the end
Into ignorance, heads in it's jaws.
Manipulation at it's best
You use them to create these laws.
The illusion of freedom they seek with you
Their agency, unknowing, is on pause.
They do anything you tell them to.
They'd fight for any cause.

Death be Swift

Can't help thinking that one day I will die. The very thought brings back memories of dreams and that feeling just before being killed. It can hardly be described as something in this reality. It's as though my body shakes. Every atom vibrating extremely quickly. It is then that my body goes numb like the feeling when your arm is asleep but not tingling yet and you dare not move in fear of returning feeling. I hope that, when it's my time, death will be just as it is in my dreams. Devoid of all pain. Although the pain isn't there, the fear strikes true throughout my spyche. Not fear of loss but the fear of unknowing. Is this the end of my journey? Will i truely die? Or will my consciousness return to the dust along with my body to be one with the surrounding matter. Will i be sent to the pearly white gates? If god knows as much as they say, he knows the true desires of my heart. Does that warrant entry into this Shangra La? Wherever i go, i'm dead all the same. The only thing left is just my name and it's echoes reverberating in this pool of chaos.

Cosmic Understanding

Beauty of the stars untold
Evident only by sight
Denial of the life we hold
Scathed by propoganda and spite.
The love for a god unseen
Corrupting our sight of beauty
Look into the sky and see
The complexity that is you and me.
We are the product of the chaos,
That keeps our lives so interesting.
Finite rules of men, dictate our sight and hearing.
Only when we feel the doubt,
Do we see the clearing.
Clear your mind of the clutter
Forced down your throat for decades.
Discern the dictates of your conscience
Through the trial and error that defines us.
Life you must live before you learn
Your mind is nothing without the freedom
Repeating structures of thought-out control.
Be a singularity
Devout of all corruption.
Be all that you can be
Be a beacon among destruction.

Screwed

Excuse me for caring,
Or even daring, to take a chance on you.
Your interactions with these kinds of attractions,
From what i hear, are not few.
You won't have a problem with me anymore
I moved too fast because i wanted more.
I really liked you and thought you were fun.
Maybe it's better that you turned to run.

As one

Believe what you want to believe and let nature take its course. It works in mysterious ways. It may bring us together.... or apart. But just know that i love you... and nature has spoken. We are together. And beaming. Close. One with the Earth and with eachother. And as time goes on, we will grow strong. Becoming more of one being. As we come to realize who we are. And, as each moment passes, we will be.